The murder theories - I can't remember how or why I got interested in that topic, I just always felt sorry for Kurt Cobain, from the moment on I read that he had killed himself. Now I no longer believe in this statement. I have become very skeptical when watching the news or reading the newspaper, why should I believe what I'm told? The government makes the press tell people what is best for the government. And, of course, it's not good to tell people a huge Rock-Idol was killed. Because they would be upset. They would ask for answers. The police would probably be overwhelmed, if they had to find a murderer while the world is watching them.
And there's always the money. Politicians get payed for doing this, journalists get payed for saying that and so on. It sucks.
I'm not an anarchist, never really dealt with this topic (anarchy). But I think we should not believe everything we are told. We are just the people. We are the small ones. We are the ones that are being used and exploited by companies, politicians, the press. As far as possible, we are kept on a short leash.
Now, in the case of Kurt Cobain's death - what should the "big ones" do?
They have a corpse, they have a huge crowd of people, which will be beside themselves when being told about that corpse. They have a famous singer/widow, who's inevitable involved in the whole thing and who could also be involved in the superstar's death. They have a shotgun, heroin and a suicide note (which actually isn't a suicide note). But they don't have an autopsy report, they haven't questioned all the suspects, witnesses and family members yet.
A decision needs to be made, the journalists are waiting.
I think the police could not cope with the pressure, they told the public it had been suicide on the very same day they found the corpse!
I also think that they made mistakes and that they didn't always use their brains.
And they certainly didn't want to be portrayed as incompetent, so after telling the public it had been suicide they never really tried to find out what exactly had happenend in the greenhouse. Even though there were many people who had submitted more or less credible evidence that argued against a suicide.
One of the consequences were the so-called "copy-cat" suicides: Children and teenagers - Nirvana fans - killed themselves, too. Officially it's 68 cases, actually there were probably hundreds of young people, who killed themselves after their idol had done it. But only 68 left a suicide note, which is the reason why only these cases are officially documented as Kurt Cobain - "copy-cat" suicides. For me this case was very shocking:
In January 1995 an eleven year old boy was found hanged in his home's basement in Ile d'Orleans, Quebec. His suicide note says, "I kill myself for Kurt". In her obituary his mother asked other children not to listen to Nirvana's "negative music".I mean - fuck! He was eleven!
Tom Grant (private investigator and former detective who worked on the case from the very beginning on) made a website dealing with Kurt Cobain's death and the murder theory. I knew the facts below from the book Love & Death: The Murder Of Kurt Cobain, but you can find them on Tom Grant's website.
These are some of the facts that made me think about the whole thing and let me believe in murder:
Kurt Cobain wanted to leave his wife and she knew it. Weeks before he died, Courney Love asked one of her lawyers to get the "meanest, most vicious divorce lawyer" she could find.
Someone tried to use Kurt Cobain's credit card, when he was already dead. When his body was found, the attempts to use the credit card stopped.
The shotgun that killed Kurt Cobain was bought before he went to rehab, not after he fled *. It was purchased and fully loaded for protection, because for some reason Kurt Cobain was in fear of his life. Why should he fully load it with three shells, if he wanted to kill himself, what for he would only need one bullet?
The police says there were no legible fingerprints on the shotgun.
The "suicide note" was not adressed to his wife and daughter and says nothing about killing himself. It was written to his fans telling them he was quitting the music business. The footnote to Courtney Love and his daughter was probably added by someone else.
Courtney Love had a second note. She didn't tell anyone about it until months later when information about it slipped out during an interview for a magazine.
The second note was about leaving his wife and leaving Seattle, but not about killing himself. It clearly defines the note found at the scene.
LETHAL DOSE OF HEROIN
Kurt Cobain had three times a lethal dose of heroin in his blood.
- When injecting such an amount, you are almost immediately incapacitated. It is very (very, very) unlikely that he even managed to put away the injection paraphernalia. He could not have picked up the shotgun and he could not have pulled the trigger.
- Why should Kurt Cobain even shoot himself? The amount of heroin would've killed him anyway. He had a lot of experience with heroin and would have known that.
Kurt Cobain built no barricading *.
Kurt Cobain did not leave his Driver's License *. A policeman found his closed wallet, took and opened it and placed it on the floor.
There is no forensic evidence that proves Kurt Cobain's death was a suicide. There is evidence for murder.
Tom Grant says he's got more information, more evidence that proves it was murder, but he does not want to publish it.
When reading the book and seeing him in the documentary Kurt & Courtney he seemed to be very neutral and really trying to save the case, which is another reason that makes me believe in the murder theory.
*as reported by misinformed media sources.
In addition to the points listed above, I think it's unlikely that Kurt Cobain wanted to kill himself at this point of his life. He had a nineteen month old daughter. Kurt Cobain about being a father:
"There's nothing better than having a baby. [...] I can't tell you how much my attitude has changed since we've got Frances. Holding my baby is the best drug in the world."
I still got a few pages of Love and Death by Ian Halperin and Max Wallace left, I haven't read. I watched Kurt & Courtney, I also watched Last Days. But that's all I did, so I'm not an expert on that topic. But what I know makes me believe that it would be stupid to just believe what you're told and accept a suicide. That may be easier than thinking about Kurt Cobain's death over and over again, in the end only being able to say: I do not know. I actually can't tell what really happenend.
But I'm still doing better that way than believing in a suicide.
I'm really curious about the documentary Soaked In Bleach, which will come out this year. Watch the trailer here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wcu3qb6J_5c
I'm also curious about what you think about Kurt Cobain's "suicide", so -
leave a comment & tell me!
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If you are interested in this topic:
Tom Grant'swebsite on this topic: http://www.cobaincase.com/
Book: Love and Death: The Murder Of Kurt Cobain http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Love_and_Death:_The_Murder_of_Kurt_Cobain
Movie: Kurt & Courtney
Movie: Last Days
If you search for it on the internet, you will find websites in any language, television documentaries and books dealing with this topic.
"Oh well, whatever, nevermind."Rest in peace, Kurt.